Water Deprivation Results

Before I post the results to the water test, I wanted to talk about the extreme anxiety I have been experiencing recently. It is absolutely ruining my life and it comes on suddenly without warning. I could not sleep last night because of it. I forgot to take my DDAVP and was having horrific night sweats...I really need to remember taking it. Anyway, I woke up a few times with my heart racing. I was definitely having a panic attack in the middle of the night and just decided to get up.

What's the point of going through mental torment while laying bed?

On monday I am talking with an EFT counselor to see if she can get to the bottom of all this. I'm really scared about this, so maybe I'm already stressing over talking to her about my anxiety...LOL

Glucose--84 (65-99)
Sodium--142 (135-145)
Potassium--3.4 (3.5-5.2) LOW Don't worry I'm already on RX potassium.
BUN--13 (5-26)
Creatinine--0.92 (0.57-1.00)
Chloride--103 (97-108)
Carbon Dioxide--24 (20-32)

ADH-- <0.8 (0.0-4.7) LOW
Serum Osmolality--287 (275-295) Last time I was above range on this one
Urine, Osmolality--784 (After 12 hour fluid restriction >850) LOW

At first glance the doc thought the ADH was too low, but then he said my sodium wasn't high enough. I pointed out to him that the urine osmolality for 12 hour fluid restriction was too low regardless that it concentrated at all. Yes I don't have complete, severe DI. We already knew that, but this does not rule out partial DI.

I have been taking my spray again with good results. I'm just going to take it when I feel I need it and that's that. I'll probably have to go back to Dr. Goldstein to get more refills in a few months. I'll worry about that when that comes up. I should probably make an appointment now though to see him.

Not Something I'm Proud Of

I've gained 20 pounds since starting hormone replacement. Let me tell you this does not make me very happy...at all. I tried telling myself that it would "calm down", but I have been on an upward trend for months now and I don't see this changing anytime soon.

Since I can't tolerate Armour I have no idea what I'm supposed to do. Is this my true weight rather than the adrenal insufficient, dying weight I was before? Or is this just hypothyroid rearing its head!

This alone is making me extremely depressed and I'm probably going to have to buy new pants again. That's what the 3rd time now in 3 months? I scare the shit out of myself when I enter this zone because I see the anorexic me come back instantly. The anorexic me that caused all these health problems to begin with. I was a normal, healthy person before I went and starved myself yet here I am thinking that cutting my calories back even further is a good thing.

My heart rates have been up again. The florinef is not keeping them in check anymore, so I feel like nothing is better. Today was absolutely beautiful outside, but as soon as I stepped outside and went to look at my flowers---BAM 147 heart rate--You can't do anything when your heart is that high except gasp for air and look for the nearest place to sit down.

I am pissed off and not in a good mood.