Showing posts with label hope. Show all posts
Showing posts with label hope. Show all posts

Friday, October 31, 2014

Being Sifted Like Wheat, Lord Make it Stop, Please!

Lately I have been crying out to God. Telling Him, I can't take it anymore. I told God I was so done living like this. Haven't we stood enough, Lord?? I've been saying this for 17 months, but in the past few months things have been unbearable.

As I was laying in bed the other day with a migraine and feeling lost, this is the scripture that God spoke to me.

And the Lord said, “Simon, Simon! Indeed, Satan has asked for you, that he may sift you as wheat. But I have prayed for you, that your faith should not fail; and when you have returned to Me, strengthen your brethren.”

This is not exactly the kind of scripture I was looking for, but in our situation it makes sense. Lately everything has been falling apart. Everything hurts. 

Inside I feel completely dead from the culmination of all that has been going on for the past 6+ years. I've only been saved for 2 years, but we were suffering long before we started down this journey in Christ. It seemed like it has all caught up to me. Years of living very poor with very high levels of stress that never go away. Years of feeling insecure and uncertain about our situation. Years of not knowing how we are supposed to walk at times. Years of feeling like I'm making things up as we go. Some days it feels like it's never going to end because well it's been 6+ years. It hasn't ended yet.

And yet we do hold on desperately to what God has promised us even though it seems so remote and distant at times. God is the only hope we have because without a miracle from Him, we have no life before us.

Neither of us can heal ourselves. 
Neither of us have any capacity to work.

The days leading up to this latest breakdown, we had been praying and trusting God for a need and no money had come in, so I was scared and anxious. I cried so much the day before, it triggered a migraine that started in the evening and continued on when I woke up the next day. On top of everything else going on, it just seemed so cruel. 

I guess this is what it feels like to be sifted by Satan. It hurts. It unrelenting. He's evil and wicked and trying to get me to turn away from God. Sometimes I have been mad at God.

While laying in bed I was also reminded of the story of Dan Baumann who was tortured in prison for 9 weeks. God sent him to this country knowing that he was going to be arrested and tortured for weeks.

Dan tells in his story,
"It was out of my hands, there was nothing I could do. Either God would do a miracle or I would stay there.
There was no sense of feeling God. I felt like God was far away. All I could really trust in was His character, and that His character would be true no matter what I was feeling and no matter what circumstance I was going through."
“I struggled with faith, ‘Was God with me? Did He love me? If God is good why would He allow me to go through this situation?’ And I remember one day I woke up, and I was done inside." 
Although the circumstances are much different, on a spiritual level we are at a similar place because if God doesn't show up, there is no way out. It seems I've asked the same questions and have also felt done inside too

And of the thousands of verses God could have given me to encoruage me, He gave me the one saying that Satan was sifting me like wheat. That's hard to hear to be honest because I have no idea if there is an end in sight. I have no idea how much longer this needs to go on for. Satan asked permission and God gave it to him. That's hard to swallow.
 
This part of the scripture is encouraging though.
"But I have prayed for you, that your faith should not fail; and when you have returned to Me, strengthen your brethren"  
   
I hope Jesus is praying for me that my faith should not fail because I feel dead inside. God somehow uses our brokenness to make us into who He wants us to be. It is after we feel crushed that God restores us and enables us to strengthen our brothers. I just hope that I make it to the restoration part! heh I'm tired. I'm done living like this.

Some people will not understand where I am walking right now and that's ok. I have found either people understand because they've been through it or they flat out just don't get it at all. Again that's fine. I'm not going to try to prove something to these people who don't get it. What we are going through is biblical and the things that Satan tries to use to destroy us, God can use to purify us. 

God has invested in us and I'm believing that He's making this all work out for our good...some how, some way. I hope soon.
 
I am weak. I am helpless. I have nothing without the Lord's provision and grace on my life. I've even come to realize that our faith isn't even ours and it is a gift from God. How could I take credit for anything when it's Jesus who is praying that my faith should not fail?

I can't even begin to explain how trying this season has been for me. It feels like at any moment everything could fall apart. Given all of my health problems, I don't even know how I keep going at all. We depend on God for literally everything and it's been extremely, extremely difficult. I don't think most people could relate to be honest. And yet God has brought us all this way, for more than 2 years. However in the last few months, things have become even more difficult than before, which is horrifying to me. And yet God was saying to me, "Satan has asked to sift you". And God said ok. Again that's hard to understand for me right now. It certainly feels like we are being sifted and he's trying to destroy us. He is trying to steal everything from us to ultimately get us to walk away from God totally. The devil thinks we only love God because of the stuff he blesses us with, so he starts putting pressure on these things to see what we do. Ultimately he wants us to curse God and turn our backs on Him forever (read in Job 1:9-10).

Getting back to Luke 22, after Jesus said that Satan was going to sift him, Peter said,  “Lord, I am ready to go with You, both to prison and to death.” 

And yet Peter was not ready to do this. God knew that, but Peter didn't. Not long after he spoke those words, Peter denied Jesus three times. Temporarily his faith failed.

During this ridiculous season, just like Peter, I have failed in various ways and have had mental breakdowns several times throughout. Lately I've started to lose grips on reality. I've never been one who can handle stress well and looking back I also now understand why God chose to heal my adrenals. He knew I wouldn't have lived through this otherwise. For those that don't know, your adrenals glands make a hormone called cortisol that we depend on to live everyday and it increases in stressful situations. Trying to take meds to mimic that rhythm is extremely difficult and usually doesn't work.

The sad reality is many times we have to fail in some way before we can see our weaknesses. We may talk a big game when life is easy, but when the trials come, just like Peter, we could find ourselves doing the opposite of what thought we would do.

When Peter saw Jesus look at him after the rooster crowed (read in Luke 22:60-62), Peter was deeply troubled and wept bitterly. He finally recognized his weakness, his humanness and came to a place of repentance before God. What Satan used to try to destroy Peter, it actually ended up sifting Peter and bringing him into deeper intimacy with God. 

Once we see God's grace and willingness to forgive us in our weak times, something inside of us changes that wasn't there before we "failed". We then feel compelled to help those who are in similar situations and let them know that there is hope in Christ.

And I do really like the last part in this verse. "...when you have returned to me, strengthen your brethren".  

After we have failed in some way in our walk and then see God accept us back by His grace, only then we really know how to support and strengthen others in their struggles. This is how God can use our failings for His glory. Our failings become a testimony to His faithfulness and our testimony encourages and strengthens others who have walked the same road as we once did. In addition, we gain grace for people who have "failed" in similar ways as we did and we can pour love out to them, guide them, teach them and strengthen them just as God did in our lives. 

We essentially impart to people what God did in us, but we have to get out and come to a place of healing to do this.

This is what God shared with me while laying down with a migraine. God was telling me exactly what was going on here because things have been so dark. What Satan used to try to destroy me, ultimately, it is pushing me into answering the call God has on my life. I just hope I can continue on because I don't feel like I can. Please pray for me and my husband. 

Friday, July 19, 2013

Healing From God Is Not Mind Medicine or Natural Medicine

I want to discuss a topic that can be a bit tough for some people to hear and many will flat out tell me I'm wrong. 

I have noticed that many people make mind medicine and natural medicine an extension of God.

However, I am worried that many of these people (my friends) who believe they are consulting God for healing by taking natural medicine, are not doing what they think they are doing. I worry they are being lead astray and I wish to share my thoughts on "what is" and "what is not" seeking healing from God.


It is Entirely About Humbling Yourself Before God
Some have come to the conclusion that seeking healing from Jesus or God is a combination of mind medicine (thinking your way to better health) or natural medicine (using a diet, supplements and naturopathic ways to better health)....This is not true at all. This kind of thinking is actually based on New Age, mind cure ideals that focus on self and not on God at all.

God can go above and beyond the natural and make a person whole without them having to do some sort of treatment, detox, diet plan or even have a surgery!

For me when I say that I am seeking healing from God it is about humbling myself. Getting down on my knees and telling God I repent for trying to make myself my own doctor and my own god. God, "I messed up and thought I could do this on my own, but I am wrong. There is no cure for my illness and I need Jesus".

1 Peter 5:6-7
“God resists the proud,
But gives grace to the humble."
Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, 7 casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.

Seeking healing from God is saying it isn't about YOU. It isn't about your research. It isn't about your diet plan. It isn't about a detox program. It isn't about taking a specific assortment of vitamins for blocked pathways. It is about completely and totally accepting in your heart and in your mind what Jesus did for you on the cross.

2 Chronicles 16:9
"For the eyes of the Lord move to and fro throughout the earth that He may strongly support those whose heart is completely His."

Many will find it a challenge to get to a place like this because it requires you to really let go of control. It requires you to actually believe that God wants to heal you out of the goodness of His heart and not from something you are doing in your life. It also requires you to give up any pride or ego you have associated with things you are doing in the natural. Understand that this is not something that I can talk you into. It is also not something that happens overnight for most people. It may take a week, 6 months, a year, 5 years, 10 years, 20 years down the road where your desperation is finally great enough that you hand it all over to God. The great news is that God loves a desperate heart and even if we have turned our backs on him for most of our lives, his arms are always open ready to take us back! :)

Seeking healing from God actually requires you to turn away from things you once did. There has to be a change in your heart, which in turn causes a change in your actions. You can't go back to doing what you had done for years and then try to say that this is now your way of seeking God for a healing. There is supposed to be a transformation in your life when you give yourself to Jesus, so this makes no sense and it shows that we really don't understand how God promises healing to us. Below I will talk more about this!


How Does God Promise Healing to Us?
When it comes to seeking healing from God, we have to understand how God gave us healing. It's not because something is natural or because something is found on earth.

It is entirely based on the grace and love God has towards us. He sent us his only son Jesus (who was actually God himself in the flesh), was brutally beaten and died for us on the cross. It was His perfect sacrifice that destroyed the works of Satan and enabled us to reconcile with a clean conscience back to God. Jesus took our sin, sicknesses and fulfilled the Law, so that we may be free!

Jesus died, rose again and he now sits with our Heavenly Father in heaven. After Jesus went away to Heaven, the Lord sent us the precious Holy Spirit in his place. Holy Spirit lives inside of born again, spirit-filled Christians and he is our comforter and our healer. It is through His power that we are able to see healing on earth. Without Jesus none of this would be possible, so that is why I believe natural medicine and mind healing has absolutely nothing to do with seeking healing from God. These things give no Glory and have no bearing on what Jesus did.
If you aren't born again, then this is a great time to make that decision to proclaim Jesus as your Lord and Savior. I found this clip on Youtube from Joyce Meyers and she will lead you into a prayer of salvation. If you listened to the clip and gave your life to Jesus, then Amen and Praise God! Please email me and I will pray for you and invite Holy Spirit into your life! If you need a healing, I will also pray for that as well. :)
So remember that healing being available today is not because "something is natural on earth". The earth is under a curse due to our sin, so not everything on earth is good or a reflection of God's perfect and holy will. I know many people (including my husband) who has injured themselves using something "natural". Satan will do whatever he can to keep a person sick and that includes him getting us to focus on things that will distract us away from truly knowing the Lord. He does not want us to know God and wants us to remain blinded to his lies and in darkness.

2 Corinthians 4:4-6
In their case the god of this world has blinded the minds of the unbelievers, to keep them from seeing the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God. For what we proclaim is not ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, with ourselves as your servants for Jesus’ sake. For God, who said, “Let light shine out of darkness,” has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.

1 Peter 5:8
 Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. 

Here are some scriptures that talk about Jesus healing people.

Matthew 8:16-17
When evening had come, they brought to Him many who were demon-possessed. And He cast out the spirits with a word, and healed all who were sick, that it might be fulfilled which was spoken by Isaiah the prophet, saying: “He Himself took our infirmities And bore our sicknesses."

In this verse, we are told very plainly, that Jesus fulfilled the scripture found in Isaiah. It was Jesus that took our infirmities and bore our sicknesses and believing in Him is how we receive healing in our bodies.

Here's the verses in Isaiah that this is referring to:
Isaiah 53:4-5.
Surely He has borne our griefs
And carried our sorrows;
Yet we esteemed Him stricken,
Smitten by God, and afflicted.
But He was wounded for our transgressions,
He was bruised for our iniquities;
The chastisement for our peace was upon Him,
And by His stripes we are healed.

It is by Jesus stripes (the beatings of his body) that we are healed. We have to get this foundation of what Jesus did in order to understand how God promises healing for us today. It is about our surrendering to, having faith in and following the Lord Jesus Christ along that journey.

Whenever a person says they are believing God for healing, their journey should lead them into prayer in their own home and in churches. There should be a hunger and love for the things of God and for His Word. They should have other believers praying over them in  Jesus name (if possible), commanding the sickness and spirits to leave their bodies. The reality is Jesus did not send people to doctors nor did he tell people to take a supplement in order to get healed. Jesus did not tell a person to look within themselves to be healed either. He was always bringing people's attention away from themselves and onto God. None of them were healed by their works, but instead by their obedience to God. There is a difference between obedience to the Lord and trying to do works to be healed.

The woman with the issue of blood for 12 years had gone to many doctors, spent tons of money and they were unable to make her well and only made her worse. Out of desperation she saw Jesus and pushed her way to him believing that if she touched him, she would be healed. When she touched him, she was indeed instantly healed! Jesus was able to heal this woman in a moment's time! She had exhausted every other thing available to her, but it was going and reaching out to Jesus that made her well. (Mark 5:25-34) :)

Just as people in Jesus' day came to get prayer or get touched by Jesus, we are to do this as well. Since Jesus isn't walking around on earth now, this means it is about a personal relationship and journey with the Lord. When a person is born again, they have been reconciled to God, given the Holy Spirit and their sins have been forgiven. It is with this knowledge and understanding of what Jesus did for us on the cross, that we can begin our journey with the Lord to be healed.

With this understanding, we may also get prayer from other believers to encourage us in our walk with the Lord.

The woman with the issue of blood could have just ignored Jesus that day, but she violated the law in her land, stepped out of her comfort zone and touched Jesus. By surrendering your life to the Lord and being born again and decide to go and get prayer from others, you are demonstrating to God "I believe in your son Jesus for my healing!"

The Bible does in fact tell sick people to get prayer for healing.

James 5:14-15
"Is anyone among you sick? Let him call for the elders of the church, and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord. And the prayer of faith will save the sick, and the Lord will raise him up."

This verse pretty much tells us exactly what we need to do in order to seek healing from God.

We are not told to seek after natural supplements nor to do mind medicine practices. None of this can be done  'in Jesus name' because Jesus never displayed this in his life and it is not demonstrated within the Bible.

Having faith in God's healing is about believing in His son Jesus and getting prayer!


You Must Be Willing to Change and Turn Away From the Old
Humbling yourself isn't an easy thing to do especially when it's an area or a community where you have been built up and established in for years. It took me a good 5 months after believing Jesus was a healer to finally give it all up.

Right in the midst of God calling to me, I was neck deep in discovering genetic SNP's for people. I spent every waking moment looking at my 23andme genetic data. I created the Yasko methylation spreadsheet, which got shared on A LOT of websites. I began writing my series on how to use your 23andme raw data. I started to become "popular" in these movements. My blog for the first time started making some adsense money. I was asked to be interviewed by a reporter at Bloomberg for my thoughts on genetic information and chronic illnesses. It was scary turning away from all of this, everything I knew to be comfortable, but the call and love of God in my heart was stronger than continuing to follow what I wanted to do. I had to step out of my comfort zone.

For some people it can also mean giving up a website that funds you financially. I know there are a lot of chronically ill bloggers who make some extra cash with their blogs that solely focus on their sickness and the [natural and conventional] things they are doing to overcome it. Even if you aren't making money, but you've created a website surrounding your sickness (ahem...me), then this is something you will have to go to God about. For me I knew I needed to delete a few articles that were bringing me too much attention and I also needed to change the URL and topic of the blog. Since making all of these changes, I have been at peace about it. :) My blog has now put me in touch with other sick people who are not getting help with natural medicine and are looking for another way.

Lastly, I know from personal experience that many of these natural health communities are rooted in fear. Fear is from the devil and not of God! Some of you may need to turn away from these groups and start anew.

2 Timothy 1:7 
For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.

With time most who are in the natural medicine communities become very judgmental and look down on others who aren't following a specific diet or for instance eat fast food from time to time. There is very little love and compassion in these groups especially towards those who don't agree with your eating or living practices. These groups can become toxic to you and be prepared to leave them while seeking Jesus for healing. I know I had to!

Many will not understand your decisions! I know many told me I was nuts for deleting some of my posts, but these are the types of things you have to be willing to change and turn away from. Turning away is a step of faith.


With Natural Medicine, Who Is Getting the Credit?
This is an area that I think people need to really look within themselves. Whenever you seek healing through natural medicine or mind medicine, who or what in the end will get the glory or the credit?

For years when I was researching treatments and making myself a guinea pig, I thought when I finally got better then I would be able to "help others" by telling them what I discovered! That never happened, but I know I would have promoted some method for years and scoffed at those who said it did not work for them. Natural medicine quickly becomes about self-promotion or promoting a diet, treatment or supplement that you have made your identity.

If the end result of "seeking healing" consists of promoting a diet, supplement or treatment program, then there is no Glory to God in your journey. This is a hard truth for many to hear, but let that settle in your heart and really see what or who it is you are seeking in your healing. I don't believe God is offended if we use supplements, but I do believe his way of healing us is through the sacrifice of his son Jesus!

When I say I am seeking healing through God, it is all about praying for healing and believing in Jesus for a miracle. There will be no glory to me. There will be no glory to doctors. There will be no glory to any supplement, treatment plan or detox program. It will be ALL GLORY TO JESUS!


Healing From God Really Is Supernatural
Seeking healing from God really is a supernatural event. It is not something that has to be done by natural means. None of Jesus' miracles in the Bible could have possibly been done in the natural, so this is great news for those who have been trying things on their own with little to no success! There is hope, but you have to look beyond yourself and what you are doing.

God isn't expecting us nor he is making us suffer for years doing detoxes, taking pills and whatnot in order for us to be healed. A miracle cannot be reasoned out through natural ways.

In the Bible there were many sicknesses that were caused by an evil spirit attaching themselves to a person. There are probably some of us who are sick because of a spirit. There is no amount of natural knowledge or mind medicine that will be able to overcome that. You need the delivering power only found in the name of Jesus Christ, the Son of God!

Luke 13:11
And there was a woman who for eighteen years had had a sickness caused by a spirit; and she was bent double, and could not straighten up at all. 12 When Jesus saw her, He called her over and said to her, “Woman, you are freed from your sickness.” 13 And He laid His hands on her; and immediately she was made erect again and began glorifying God.

For any of you, you have to let go of the scientific thinking and just accept that we will never be able to understand how it all works or how it all happens. If we could, then believing in Jesus for healing would not be by faith, but it would be by sight and by worldly knowledge.

Jesus is able to heal you in whatever place you are emotionally, physically, spiritually and mentally. Just give your life over to Him and allow him to begin to renew your mind about what you believe of Him and about yourself.  You don't have to have it all figured out to come to God with your troubles and sicknesses. Just ask the Lord.


Watch for the New Age Healing Teachings
Another problem with the natural medicine community is that it is full of new age, occultist and energy healing methods. Christians need to be careful with what we get ourselves involved with because not everything is safe or OK in the spiritual realm. We can easily fall victim to new age healing methods because we think to ourselves, "well since it's natural, it's ok", but this is not true! Many new age healing methods go hand in hand with the natural medicine and it's totally normal to see people talking about it on forums or in FB groups. These methods include yoga, acupuncture, reiki, muscle testing, energy machines, retraining programs, chakra balancing, EFT tapping, crystal healing and soo much more.

When a person takes part in new age healing methods, you may be inviting demons and other unclean spirits to come into your life. Many Christians don't understand why these things are dangerous and this is the reason. It's not about what your intentions are or even about what you think about a practice, it is the fact that these methods are aligning you with false gods and demonic spirits.

Out of my ignorance, I tried energy machines, EFT tapping, muscle testing and other things! I'm simply warning you that these practices have more to them than just some harmless "energy". These practices knowingly or not summon or seek other spirits that are not of God even if they sound scientific.

The bad spirits associated with these therapies can attach themselves to you. They can cause more sickness in your body or they try to influence you in other areas of your life. Demons LOVE to deceive people, so they will do anything in order for you to accept them in your life. As you continue down this path you may find yourself getting sicker and sicker OR the spirit moves and causes new health problems to crop up. Here's the vicious cycle though, as you get sicker from the spirits, you then run back to the new age treatments! You have to break away from those practices and renounce them!

If you have done any New age practices then pray about it. Let the Lord speak to you and see what you need to do. Some people may need delivered from these spirits, so that's why it's good to consult Holy Spirit on this. I've repented for the things I did and I am clean in my conscience about it now. I will never touch any of these therapies ever again.


Reasons Why Many Fall for New Age Healing methods
There are three main reasons why some Christians fall victim to new age teachings.

1) Most of the time it is out of ignorance. We don't even know that something is new age or we don't realize that it summons spirits outside of God's kingdom. Many people are just looking for something to give them relief for a condition they have in their body. Unfortunately the enemy doesn't care if you made a mistake, he uses opportunities like this to latch on to you.

For further study, I recommend these two things.
This video may help you to get a better understanding of how the New Age is like web.
http://youtu.be/0ei_tU9cKYw

This article talks specifically about Yoga.
https://www.cai.org/testimonies/spiritual-deception-yoga

2) Most of today's churches (Cessationists) do not teach about the spiritual gifts of Holy Spirit, so instead of being able to search and find the real thing, we get caught up in following other spiritualities. The Holy Spirit in doing the will of God gives gifts to each believer as He chooses. Apostle Paul tells us to desire the gifts earnestly, so ask God to show this aspect of Christianity to you.

For further study
Here's a video of Sid Roth's story of delving into new age before he found Jesus. I'm sad to say that I believe Sid Roth in recent years has gone back into many new age ideals, but his testimony here is very good.
http://youtu.be/0vRQxvblgFc

3) Lastly, most in the church don't really understand how healing is available to us today or some simply just do not believe at all. This is where it is good to study your Bible and get involved with other like minded Christians who believe that Jesus is still a healer today.


Medical Treatment While Standing For Your Healing
While you are in the midst of standing for your healing, it is completely acceptable to see doctors, take ongoing prescriptions and supplements if they help you. If it's time for that checkup at the doctor, there is nothing wrong with going! I still go to my cardiologist when he wants to see me and I still go to my eye doctor regularly too. I still take potassium and other random vitamins as I see fit, but this is not Jesus and it is not how the Lord will ultimately heal me.

I am NOT telling anyone to stop seeking medical treatment. I took hydrocortisone while getting prayer for my healing of adrenal insufficiency. God healed me of this condition while taking medication and I was able to come off of it without any side effects! I took the pills so I wouldn't die because this is a serious medical condition. I had to live to fight another day and I don't think that God is offended by things like this.
  • You can be going for healing prayer and also go to doctors at the same time. 
  • You can be going to doctors and still seek healing prayer at the same time.
You don't have to be doing one or the other. However, we must remember and understand that doctors ARE NOT GOD. I don't believe that the church should ever be associating themselves with medicine, supplements or any other natural health treatment plans. We are ambassadors of Christ and our call on this earth is to tell people the Good News of Jesus. If we tell someone to take a supplement or to try some treatment, what happens if they are injured by the treatment? How do we rectify that?

The one thing that sick people have to keep in mind is that the devil will try to harm you given any chance at all. He can use a doctor to do it. He can use a medication to do it. I know more people harmed (or dismissed) by doctors than people healed by doctors. This is where my hesitation comes from in offering advice and telling people to go to doctors as a Christian. It is a decision only you can make.

If you are purposely choosing not to believe in God or not pray at all for healing, then this is when a person needs personal ministry. Sometimes the enemy can come into our minds and tell us we aren't worthy of being healed.  Please seek help if this is what is happening to you. I am more than willing to chat with you, so feel free to contact me.

Despite where you have come from and what has happened in the past, Jesus is willing and able to make you well. He can overcome sickness when nothing else in the world can! This is WHY Jesus is such good new and why my focus is always on Him! It's freeing and gives me peace.


God Can Show Us Something In the Natural
If you have a personal relationship with the Lord, then it is entirely possible for him to speak to you about things in your life that you can change. I don't want people to think that I am trying to "put God in a box". I want to open people's eyes up to the idea that God is bigger and better than we could even imagine. He IS NOT limited to natural treatments, diet and thinking positive.

I wanted to share a story of God showing me something in my life that was causing health problems.  It's kind of a weird thing, but I'm completely open and honest with people, so here it goes...haha

For a long time I had a lot of burning and pain in my bladder. It wasn't always a urinary tract infection (UTI) because I wasn't experiencing the right symptoms for those. Sometimes though the burning would develop into a UTI which was so annoying. Whenever the pain came on, I'd pray against it and nothing would happen. It was very frustrating. Sometimes I'd sit in the bathtub because the burning was really painful. It would come and go and I could never figure out why.

Well I had this for years (even before I was born again) and during this time, I realized that a little bit of baking soda in a glass of water would usually give me relief within 20 minutes. I started using this a lot because the pain was terrible.

Well probably about 2 months ago, I went to use the bathroom and while I was peeing, God said. "Dana, you aren't emptying your whole bladder when you use the bathroom." I was dumbfounded. "Really God, I'm not?!" Well of course God was right. I'm not sure why, but I wasn't letting out my full bladder, so small amounts of urine were constantly sitting in my bladder causing pain! I'm happy to report that I haven't had bladder pain since that day and I haven't had to take any baking soda or anything at all.

This is an example of where God can tell you something in the natural to help you out. I just don't think that we can make this a formula of some sort though!

This is why we need to tell people to actually seek JESUS in their healings, so that if the Holy Spirit feels the need to talk to you about something like this, he can. If you tell people to just seek natural medicine, then there is no relationship there at all. It's completely about the supplements and not about Jesus at all.


I'm Settled On Jesus and Jesus Alone
When I say I am seeking healing through Jesus, this means I am not taking supplements or herbs for my healing. I am not going to reiki healers and I'm not getting acupuncture done. In my heart, I have settled that a supernatural healing is the only way it will happen. I am no longer focusing on researching diets, supplements or some other theory. I am no longer trying to take herbs. For 8 years of my life, I went from doctor to doctor; specialist to specialist; naturopath to naturopath. It did not bring me health at all. I probably spent like 30k dollars in a course of a few years, so I can definitely relate to the woman with the issue of blood. All of that time, money and energy was for NOTHING. All I did was make myself my own god, get sicker and have adverse reactions to drugs and supplements. It was terrible.

Nowadays I am reading the Bible and praying to hear from the Holy Spirit more and more! I'm no longer living in guilt and shame and I am excited to see what God has planned for my life. I go to local events whenever possible to be in fellowship with other believers. I get prayer from ministers and others who believe in healing. My husband and I also pray for each other too. Is my health perfect? Nope, not yet. Every day is a battle, but I know that Jesus is Lord and that he will take my sicknesses from me. All I do is just keep chugging along, getting prayer and not give up. Do not let the devil come in and wipe you out. You put on the Armor of God and batten down the hatches if it ever gets to that point.

I recommend reading the story of Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-Nego in Daniel 3. King Nebuchadnezzar had set up a gold image and was telling people to worship this idol. Anytime he played his trumpets and flutes, he ordered people to bow down to it. Well Shadrach, Meshach and Abed-Nego wanted nothing to do with this false god because they believed in One true God. The King got so angry he threatened to throw then into the fiery furnace if they did not bow.

This was their response to the King:
“O Nebuchadnezzar, we have no need to answer you in this matter. 17 If that is the case, our God whom we serve is able to deliver us from the burning fiery furnace, and He will deliver us from your hand, O king. 18 But if not, let it be known to you, O king, that we do not serve your gods, nor will we worship the gold image which you have set up.

This is powerful! Many may never come to this point of surrender and trust in their Christian walk. No one can bottle up this level of faith and give it to you. No one can talk you into believing like this. No one can give you a formula or a 9 step program to get you to submit to God like these three men. You have to come to this point on your own and settle in your heart that no matter what happens, that this is where you draw the line in the sand and hold on to God.

I am at this place when it comes to healing. I have no other game plan. I know that Jesus is my healer and I believe he will heal me, but even if it does not happen for some reason, I will not abandon my beliefs and start to look for other ways to gain healing. You can't get to a place like this by faking it or pretending or even reciting scriptures over and over again. You have to be completely, 100% surrendered and sold out for Jesus!

Let's actually believe in what Jesus did instead of trying to find the answers ourselves! Jesus already paid the price for our healing, so let's trust him for it.

Monday, June 24, 2013

Welcoming the Sick into the Church

I saw this article today about fibromyalgia where it is now being admitted it is NOT all in your head. The medical community is just figuring this out decades later...

"Fibromyalgia, a painful condition affecting approximately 10 million people in the U.S., **is not imaginary after all**, as some doctors have believed."
This article underlines why the church has to become THE place where sick can go to for healing, comfort and love. We can't be judging them or disqualifying them for taking a disability check or telling them they don't have enough faith. The rest of the world already does a good job at demeaning the sick, so when they come to the church they don't have any patience for it anymore. They will quickly leave if they feel attacked! I have a soft heart for the sick probably because I've been sick practically my whole life to some degree and I know what they feel and I know what they go through. They did not choose to be sick. They did not think their sickness into existence. They were attacked without permission by the enemy and we need to treat them with LOVE, respect, dignity like Jesus did. Amen!

I don't think the church realizes how much the sick are abused on a daily basis. They are told that they are crazy, lazy for not working, a hypochondriac, "hyper vigilant", just stressed, having anxiety or really not sick at all... In reality they are actually sick, but the medical community has no cures or solutions for them, so they are labeled in these derogatory ways. Here's where it gets messed up, normal healthy people think the doctors labels are accurate, so they then treat the sick poorly too. Many who have not been sick in their lives, simply do not understand how messed up the medical system can be!

The sick are looking anywhere for some help! We as believers can step in and be that help! We are letting the new age, energy counterfeit medicines like acupuncture, mind medicine, energy crystals, energy tapping, chakras, yoga and many other treatments to take over where Jesus reigns above all of those ways. Sick people need to know the amazing story of what Jesus did! No expensive treatments required! lol Jesus is the most powerful and most high healer on earth and he paid the price for our healing. :)

The sick need real help, not just a "feel better about your sickness" pep talk. If they want that, they can go to Barnes and Noble and get that in the new age, self help section. Christianity is supposed to be different and I actually think we are bringing down our message with searching for root causes and making it about the person in front of us. It's always been about Jesus and his amazing, willingful sacrifice for us. He knew exactly what he was doing and he died before we were even born, so we could be saved, healed, delivered and set free. That's a pretty sweet deal!

With all of the stuff that has happened to me in my life, I don't want to focus on myself.  Every time I do that, the enemy sweeps in and tries to get me to stay in shame and condemnation. I'd much rather talk about Jesus, what he did and what he thinks of me! I get rather defensive when people want to talk about my past abuses. Instead of trying to tackle issues as if we were psychologists, we need to trust Holy Spirit to guide us and to heal those who have a hurting past.

I want the sick to have a safe haven with the church. We need to tell the sick they are loved by Jesus. We need to tell them that God did not do this to them. We need to tell them what God thinks of sickness! Many are in bondage over this issue because they think God made them sick for some higher purpose to suffer for him... We need to tell them the parasitic nature of sickness from Satan himself. He is the enemy of God, so he looks for anyone to devour and he attaches sickness to people without permission from God.

We have to stop being afraid to admit that some people are more anointed in healing and miracles than others. We don't seem to have this fear when it comes to other spiritual gifts. There are plenty of prophets, evangelists, singers, teachers and seers who willing place that title on themselves, but when it comes to healing, the church is simply terrified to embrace this. [I suspect this is because of the abuses that occurred from some of these "healers" in the past few decades]. Instead of running from power though, we need to embrace the power given to us by Holy Spirit whether that is prophecy, healing, discerning of spirits, speaking in tongues etc. We are given these gifts by the grace of God to use so that we can build up the church and ultimately bring in the lost, sick and hurting. We believers of Christ give them real hope. We believers of Christ give them real life, real family and a real means of being free from the past and being free from sickness. We need to continue to give them the real Jesus!

Maybe what I'm saying is really bold, but this is really what was on my heart today for some reason. This might be a bit preachy and I'm sorry for that. I say all of this out of love and I want the church to be walking in such power that the world can't turn away and ignore us anymore! I feel like those days are coming.

As I was writing this today, I saw John Mellor post a testimony of a woman being healed of fibromyalgia and several other ailments... SO powerful! Thank you John for devoting your life to Christ and for your dedication to praying for the sick. You have been so instrumental in my healing journey! When I was getting beat up by some teachings, I just kept looking to John for encouragement each day. If any of you are not following him on Facebook, I highly recommend you do. Every day you will get wonderful healing testimonies and be encouraged!  :)


Video of her getting prayer- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HrnMYAS_log
Video of testimony afterwards- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lcvBhHUu0s4

I was teary eyed as I watched this and as she hugged her husband. I lost it! haha!!. The joy in her eyes after prayer is amazing. Thank you JESUS! AMEN!!!

And I write all of these posts as I am suffering with my own sicknesses. I am losing more vision. I woke up on Friday morning and had a large gray swath of vision, just gone. I prayed against it for a while and about 2 hours later it improved! There is a new blind spot in that eye and it can be scary to lose vision suddenly, but I have been hopeful despite all of the bad that's going on right now in my life. My financial struggles and health problems are not lord. Jesus is Lord and he will heal me and deliver me from all of this. I know it.

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