Got Labs: More Nothing

Considering how sick I am, I am always amazed at how nice things look on paper...lol

Creatine Kinase 55 (33-194)
Lactate 0.57 (.50-2.20)
Pyruvate 0.89 (0.30-1.50)
Copper 87 (70-175)
Ceruloplasmin 25.1 (18-53)

Wrist pain is fading

Just wanted to let everyone know the wrist pain is way way better. I don't need the stupid bandage anymore!

My "Go-to" for Ovarian, Uterine Pain

I'm not sure I ever documented this before on my blog. I think these health problems were LONG before I ever started blogging and it was so long ago that I just never really thought about it. I really have come a long way in my health journey.

This isn't the first time I've had uterine pain. I also have it about 5-6 years ago. Right around this time is when my trust in doctors started to rapidly fade away. I was having A LOT of uterine pain during intercourse and it was really causing me a lot of emotional distress. I sucked it up and finally decided to see a doctor about it. It's sort of an embarrassing problem to have, so I didn't want to tell anyone about it especially at age 20-21!

I went to see this gynecologist who was supposed to be "one of the best" in the area and after examining me, he decided that there was indeed something wrong and he wanted to do exploratory surgery to see if he could find anything. He wanted my permission to remove any endometriosis he saw during the surgery. Well I told him I would have to think about it. I don't take surgery of any type lightly. He also suggested, if I didn't want to do that, then I could be placed into early menopause at the lovely age of 21!! WOW I told him that wasn't even an option!! I knew nothing back then about the medical system and was completely dumbfounded that a doctor would even suggest this for someone my age who was newly married last year... I opted for the ultrasound which ultimately showed nothing, but I knew I wasn't crazy.

This is really when my search for alternative treatments started. The lack of answers from this doctor sent me down the "rabbit hole" as they say. After looking up the symptoms of uterine fibroids, I decided this was probably what was wrong. My husband found a supplement that was supposed to dissolve fibroid tumors and we ordered it. I figured I had nothing to lose right?

Within the first few days of taking it, I noticed pain in some of my joints and in areas where I suffered injuries years prior. When I was ~10 years old, I stepped on a toothpick which went straight into the heel of my foot. That exact foot and heel was hurting terrible while taking these supplements! I could not walk on it at all for an entire week. I thought it was really weird and didn't put 2 and 2 together until a few days went by. It turns out this supplement eats away fibrin from current or past injuries. I knew that it must be working, so I continued taking it.

Things started to get better. The uterine pain was lessening and lessening and lessening. Then after some time I realized I just wasn't having the pain any more at all!..This didn't happen overnight, but it also didn't take like 3 years either. I believe I finished off two 450 capsule bottles and then decided to stop taking them to see what would happen. Well nothing bad happened. The pain was gone and stayed away for a long time.

Well since the pain appears to be bad again, I figured I better get back on the supplement to see what happens. Thankfully we had an old bottle in the refrigerator! I took 5 pills right before bed and woke up with some wrist pain. I thought to myself, wow this is really odd. What the heck did I do to myself while I was sleeping? At first I thought I had slept on it weird. I took my next dose that morning, once again not thinking about the supplement. We were out at the store when it just hit me like a ton of bricks. OMG it's the pills making my wrist hurt!

Once again, just like the last time, the Vitalzym is making my joints hurt for some reason. It's obviously dissolving fibrin or some type of scar tissue. Not only is wrist hurting really really bad--I have it wrapped up in a bandage--but my left ankle bone started to hurt tonight too. haha You have no idea how incredibly painful writing this post has been and it makes me wonder if it's healing damage I've done from working on the computer all of these years.

I guess there's a new reformulated Vitalzym that's supposed to be even more potent. I still have the old stuff. If I can find the funds to buy the new stuff once this bottle runs out, I'll let you know how it works. I guess you don't have to take as many pills to get the same strength which is great. Right now I'm taking 15 pills a day, which can be hard to get down. If you are interested in Vitalzym just do a google search. Lots of online stores sell it, but I recommend doing some price checking! Some websites are WAY cheaper than others.

I'm curious to see how this works and I'll keep updating.

The PVC's are gone finally

Yesterday I noticed a drastic improvement in my heart rhythm and today it is about the same. I had about 5 or 6 PVC's compared to 1 every single minute or more! I don't know if it's because I stopped the B vitamins or if I added in some extra potassium and magnesium. I'm sure those didn't hurt at all, but I really think it was discontinuing the B's that did it. Now this time, I'm starting each B vitamin on their own and giving it a week to see what happens. That way I know RIGHT AWAY which vitamin(s) is causing the problems.

I might need to go to the gynecologist. Not to be too gross, but I was having a lot of mid-cycle pain this month which I haven't had for a while. I also noticed that my ovulation discharge was a weird orangy-red color which I've NEVER seen before. Now when I urinate or move a certain way I am getting ovary pain and making love to my husband was so painful I nearly threw up! Sorry if this is TMI, but I think it's important to document this. I've NEVER experienced pain like this before. I stood up and nearly collapsed. The nausea was soo bad, I had to just lay down for a while until it all passed. My abdomen is feeling kind of odd right now too...

I have no idea what is happening here. I always feel like something new is showing up.

I hate doctors

The PVC's are just not going away, so after a long internal debate I decided I should go to the local urgent care to make sure everything is ok. I just wanted to make sure that the rest of my heart rhythm was normal. I've been getting the PVC's just about every minute, which if you look online isn't THAT bad. But still, it is pretty darn uncomfortable especially when this is happening with HR's into the 140's!!

I get into the exam room and the nurse says they usually just send heart palpitation patients to the ER as they can't really do much here. "I'm not a doctor though, just telling you what normally ends up happening". I was thinking to myself. Well I didn't go to the ER because it's not to that point.

They do an EKG and of course it's always lying down and when you aren't symptomatic. I hate that. The EKG comes back completely normal which was great, but it didn't capture what I was experiencing. Literally 5 seconds after she printed that stupid sheet out I had like 2 or 3 PVC's upon sitting up! /sigh

The doctor comes in and he is insulting and patronizing me immediately. I'm thinking to myself, what did I do to deserve this type of treatment? I come in here because I wanted to make sure I wasn't in SVT or something and this guy is just lecturing me about stupid shit that doesn't even matter to me.

He tells me that I need to start working again because it's clear that I need more structure in my life and I need to be "part of a team". He said that when you don't work, your heart doesn't have anything to respond to so it starts to race at times when it shouldn't. If I had a job that would be the best thing for me. Can I say WTF? I just let him continue because I wanted to make sure he dug himself the largest hole possible with no way out. He keeps telling me that I need to find out what my triggers are for this "POTS" and I need to stop doing it.

"How long have you had POTS". Diagnosed 1-2 years, but I've had it for about 10 years. "Well you need to stop thinking about it and just live. You are worrying too much about this POTS and need to work. This is when I stop him and correct him about what POTS even is because he kept using the wrong words. He was saying Paroxysmal tachycardia or something like that and I told him NO it is called POSTURAL orthostatic tachycardia syndrome. Then I went on to tell him that I used to work. Quite a lot actually and I eventually had to quit because I COULD NOT WORK ANYMORE due to my heart. "Well you need to find a job that you can handle because that's the best thing for you." WOW WOW WOW. I was so mad at this point, I picked up my purse and said, well there is nothing you can do for me, so this is over.

He stopped me. That's when he realized that I wasn't a freakin' idiot and said, "I know that what you feel is real. I'm not saying that your HR's aren't high or that you aren't having PVC's, you just need to realize that this will never go away and you need to live with it. I told him, what the hell did he think I've been doing for the past 1o years. I've been DEALING with it.

That's when I brought out the big guns because you have to think like a doctor. I said that I had been to Cleveland Clinic and they diagnosed me with this and they believe it's a dysfunction of the autonomic system and has nothing to do with the fact that I'm not working. That's when he started telling me about his lovely daughter. She's such an amazing basketball player. Very very fast runner and can do so much stuff. Thanks asshole for reminding me how much shit I can't do on a daily basis. He said that she has nervous system problems too, but she learns to deal with it by playing basketball. That's her way of channeling it. WTF? I asked him if he's ever had a 140 HR just from standing up from a chair. He gets a bit quiet and tells me that he had a fast HR a few times and it can be scary. That's when I pushed even further and said, what if it happened EVERY TIME YOU STAND!!! He had nothing to say about that.

He asked me what Cleveland Clinic was doing about "POTS". Oh to interject, he was talking about POTS like it was herpes or something. HAHA Just weird. Anyway, I told him that they wanted me to increase my florinef dosage and salt intake. The look on his face was "I have no idea what this girl is talking about, but I'm going to pretend like I do". He said, oh how has that worked for you. I told him that I had already tried that last year and it does nothing for me at all. The only thing that worked was a beta blocker, but as the weather got warm it stopped working because of my severe heat intolerance. To further prove that he had no idea what he was talking about, he said that "Every 5 years or so, car companies come out with new model cars. There are new computers available too. Maybe next year they will come out with a new beta blocker that won't give you heat intolerance." ROFLMAO!! This guy thinks the beta blocker gave me heat intolerance. haha Then I told him about my elevated catecholamine levels upon standing and that has a lot to do with my rapid heart rates. Once again, he had no idea what I was talking about. I totally out-doctored him right there, but this was all on purpose.

Towards the end I was shifting a lot on the exam table, looking at my purse, floor, purse, floor. He said, well I'm very sorry I can't give you a pill here today. I immediately interrupted him and said that's not what I wanted!! He seemed confused by this comment and then he got up and left. He told me I should contact one the hospitals in the area because they have a very prestigious cardiologist/EP department. I told him that I had already...I see the head of the freakin' EP department of that hospital! I also explained to him that I had a tilt-table test. "Oh you had one of those?" I said yeah that's the only way you get diagnosed with POTS and I've had 2. One at the local hospital and Cleveland Clinic. That was basically it. He said to "keep in touch". Why? So I can come back to you to hate myself even more?

What an asshole.

Basically this office visit made me have more PVC's because I was so pissed off by the doctor. I am writing a letter to the corporate office about this. He was the biggest piece of crap I've ever seen since that ER visit like 4-5 years ago who said I was a heroin addict looking for drugs. I believe to this day that was an adrenal crisis...

As Suspected...

As I kind of guessed, I begin taking vitamins and the heart palpitations start. Why? This makes no sense to me at all. It's not like I'm taking weird things. I added P-5-P (B6), biotin and B2. How is any of that weird!! The other supplements I've taken that have given me heart palps includes l-carnitine and CoQ10...Once again, why?

I don't know what to do about it. I'm thinking this time to just fight through it rather than stopping. I know the weird beats aren't threatening as they've been captured on an EKG before.

We'll see how this goes. I think it has something to do with my breathing and sinus arrhythmia. I believe the PVC's are happening as I inhale or after I exhale.

On a completely different topic. I had terrible mid-cycle pain this month. Last night I was in agonizing pain.

Labs Drawn

I had to make an appointment with the nearby hospital to get my labs done. First they had to order in the perchloric acid needed for the one test (pyruvic acid). This is a reagent that Labcorp doesn't even carry since there is a risk of explosion if it's not handled properly. haha This reagent must be chilled before applied to my blood, so it had to be refrigerated at least 2 hours before I came in. Hopefully everything was done right. It's the same hospital that did my NutrEval test and that worked out well. Thankfully my veins cooperated really well. Man I could not believe it! That lady hit my vein and the blood just came pouring out hahaha I filled up all the vials in no time and without a tourniquet (except for the initial puncture).

My sleep schedule has been off lately. I think it's because I feel so awful during the day, so I tend to want to stay up later and later since it's usually cooler at night thus I feel better...

Now I can start taking supplements again to see what happens. Why do I have this feeling that I'm going to feel like hell this week? lol

I'll be sure to post my results of the tests when I get them. I have no idea how long that might be...Most of the labs are done at the hospital from what I was understanding, so it shouldn't be too long.

Woohoo! My hormone doc ordered Mito labs!

My hormone doctor has agreed to order mitochondrial tests for me. The mitchondrial doctor I talked to on the phone a few weeks ago gave me a few tests I could have done to see if this issomething I should pursue further. She did warn me though that even if all of these tests come back normal, it doesn't mean I don't have a problem....haha She just said that if these DO come back high, then we know without any doubt there's an issue. If that is the case, then I'll need to figure out a way to get my butt to Atlanta, GA...One thing at a time...

I just gotta call around and see what hospitals even do them. The one has special handling, so I can't just walk into Labcorp or Quest and get it done.

Pyruvate (Pyruvic acid)
Lactate (Lactic Acid)
Creatinine Phosphokinase (CPK or CK)

Then I added a few of my own to just see what's happening:

Homocysteine
Serum Copper
Ceruloplasmin

I also have to call the insurance company to see if any of these ARE NOT covered...

Still Nothing From Cleveland Clinic

This really is just unbelievable to me.

I called on Thursday and got the secretary. I thought, "oh good" just the person that I've been playing phone tag with. Well sort of. To play tag you need the other person to try calling YOU back, which wasn't happening. I told her that I was trying to be as patient as one can be, but I've been waiting and calling for the past 6 weeks asking WHEN I'd get my report. 5 weeks ago I was told it would be finalized the next day and then sent out probably over the weekend. Now I call and I'm told the same thing each and every week. I want an answer NOW as to when my report will be in my hands...

She looks me up in the system. "oh..um...I guess there must have been some kind of oversight. I don't know why your report wasn't finalized". I told her that I've been told that same thing for the past 4 weeks and nothing has been done about it. "I will have the nurse call you when it is finalized". Okay so when should I expect the report to be in my hands, so that I know when to call and complain again. "I don't know" Well here it is Monday and no report, no phone call. NOTHING. What in the HELL does one have to do to get a damn report from Cleveland Clinic. This is not acceptable.

I hate to burn bridges, but I don't think I ever want to go back there. Just awful.

So...tomorrow I am calling again. I hope I get the secretary, so I can tell her that whatever it is they are doing to get the report finalized ISN'T working. I want my chart put ON TOP of the pile and it stay there until the doctor signs off on it. Period. If this doesn't work, then I'll have to call the cleveland clinic ombudsman to step in for me.

Still Not Doing Well

I was really hoping to see some improvement, but I am really bad...again. I felt decent for like 3 days as far as mood goes. But my heart has just been terrible.

I made myself go to the park today to take a short walk. My heart rate was like 150 as we were walking around, but I just made myself continue on. Suddenly it felt like someone was pushing on my throat and I told my husband I needed to sit down like NOW. We made our way to a picnic table and my HR would not go down even while sitting. I laid down on the table and immediately my heart rate went down to 70. /sigh

I felt completely out of my mind like I was watching myself watch myself.

Cleveland Clinic can kiss my ass. The autonomic department is incompetent and tomorrow they will be getting a very mean call from me. I have had enough of waiting around like a chicken with my head cut off. I want some freakin' answers as to where my report is at. They never bothered to call me back last week and now the bitch has to come out to get anything done. I'm going to tell the woman that I want a DATE that my report will be in my hands. Every single day after that report isn't in my hands, I will be calling them. Every single day until it IS in my hand.

My eye floaters/bright things are all back, so this has to be related to me feeling terrible.

I've Been So Ill Feeling

I don't know what is happening, but I've been SOO ill.


I've been researching non-stop since I got the NutrEval test back. I think I need to further pursue a possible mitochondrial disorder, but just don't have the funds to do it. For now I figured I'd just start on some of the supplements suggested and see how I do.

Well something that I started taking is making me feel terrible! I've never experienced this feeling before. I've had chronic, constant nausea. I feel hungry, but as soon as I start to cook, I can't possibly imagine actually eating the food. I've been making myself eat. My sitting heart rates are way up. I was tachying away at 122 while sitting at my computer chair. OMG!

Yesterday it was beautiful outside, cool with low humidity and I nearly collapsed at the park while taking a gentle stroll. Normally where my HR is like 118, I clocked in at 152, with shortness of breath and felt like hell.

Here's what I started taking:
Fish oil
l-carnitine
P5p (B6)
SAM-e

Today I took nothing, so we'll see how I do. I feel like a piece of shit today. Worthless. What the hell am I even doing here. I can't do anything. My sister wants me to help her buy some trellises from the store and I'll have to tell her I can't do it. What a worthless piece of shit I am. Seriously.

I'm sick of this.

Too Much Norepinephrine!

I got another call from Cleveland Clinic today. It was the nurse and she said she wanted to get clarification of my catecholamine results since she was not sure how to read them to me.

Supine norepinephrine was 125. She said this was within normal range.
Standing norepinephrine (10 minutes into tilt-test) was 613. That was out of range.

That's like an increase by 5X's. The nurse said that is way way too high. Normal is doubling, so around 250. The doctor says that is likely why my heart rates are soo incredibly high when I am standing, yet what doesn't make sense is why does my BP not go up? Norepinephrine increases blood pressure.

I asked her about the epinephrine and she said the doctor had nothing to say about it. So I have to keep waiting for the report in the mail until I can actually SEE the results. Who knows how long that will be...3 weeks and counting...

Preliminary Catecholamine Results

There's been some sort of hold up on my report from Cleveland Clinic...I asked the nurse about my catecholamine levels.

She said that my upright norepinephrine levels were high at 613.
She also said my epinephrine levels were below detectable limits <10.

Not sure what all that means right now and I'm not going to come to any conclusions until I see them for myself.

In crappy news, the floaters in my eyes have been terrible. I hate to even call them floaters because they are not dark spots. They are very bright bursts of lights that are either dark (on light objects) or bright (on dark objects). Very very similar to an after image. .They are very distracting and are in the center of my vision...

NutrEval Results Are In

Here are the results! I finally figured out privacy options on photobucket, so here's a link to the album with the NutrEval results. The guest password is birdladyblog to gain access! No offense but I didn't want any of you rummaging through my personal album, so everything is locked down now. haha!!

The results are QUITE extensive. My urinary MMA, Formiminoglutamic acid and Sarcosine are all elevated, which according to wikipedia/google are indicative of a B12, B6 and B9 deficiency. I guess this wouldn't be such a big deal if I haven't already been taking 1000mcg of Methyl B12 and Folate (B9) on a near daily basis!

There are a few amino acids on the list that have me really wondering what is going on.

I have the following elevated:
a-Ketoglutaric Acid (AKG)
Leucine
Isoleucine
Sarcosine
Formiminoglutamic Acid
B-Aminoisobutyric Acid
Taurine
Methylmalonic Acid
Tryptophan
Cysteine
Glutamic Acid
Proline
Arachiodonic Acid
Docosatetraenoic Acid (DTA)

Most of the things online only talk about if your levels are low...That doesn't help me much! haha

I'm on my own to interpret this test! More to come. I'm too tired to write a whole bunch up right now.

Interesting Development Regarding Antibiotics

I thought I'd bring my idea of an antibiotic helping my POTS symptoms to the dinet.org forum. This is a website dedicated to dysautonomic function. Apparently I am not the only one who has experienced this temporary relief of symptoms while on an antibiotic. One member suggests it could be a side effect of the actual meds, but I have to wonder if there is more to this!

My POTS did start around the same time when I contracted Epstein Barr Virus from some unknown origin. I wasn't dating anyone at the time (that I can remember), which is supposedly the "kissing" sickness.

Perhaps I have neglected this aspect of my problems. I didn't go on this antibiotic thinking I'd feel better. I just wanted to get rid of this darn infection so bad.

I don't know what to think about all of this. If you'd like to follow the thread on dinet you can find it here.

Check this out

This is kind of weird and I don't like to jump to conclusions too fast. First off I am not CURED or anything like that. However, these past few days I've been feeling better. Now I couldn't figure out anything that I had changed to make me feel any better. Hydrocortisone dose is the same, florinef is the same, salt intake the same. I haven't changed any supplements or anything like that at all. So what is it that IS different...

A few days ago I got a terrible bladder infection. It literally came out of no where. One minute was feeling great, next I was in terrible pain, having to pee every 5 minutes and I was actually peeing out BLOOD. My urine was red red with blood clots...YIKES. For the past few days I've been on antibiotics AND I've been feeling better! WOW!!

I really have no idea what that means, but it is certainly interesting. Yesterday I rode nearly 2 miles on my recumbent bike and then we went for about a mile walk. I had my usual fatigue, but my heart wasn't that bad at all. Maybe I am just having a good few days and it is coincidental.

Who knows but I will definitely take it.

Things I Do To Stay Cool

It's pretty hot here in western PA today. Right now it says it's 81 with 66% humidity. The humidity has finally kicked in this year, which makes getting around pretty darn frustrating. Since I have medical conditions that are worsened by the heat, I've learned ways to cope and keep cool.

1) Water, water
I always try to have some sort of drink on hand. The problem with just drinking water with POTS or adrenal insufficiency, is that you'll actually mess up your electrolytes even more. With my water, I also take Thermotabs which is a sodium chloride tablet. This helps me to get fluids without bringing my sodium levels down too low.

2) Wear as little clothing as possible
I know this sounds like dumb tip, but it does help to strip down to bare minimums. During the summer, I'm usually wearing my bikini top and shorts.

3) Wet towels
If you are really really hot and can't seem to cool down, then placing a cold wet towel/rag on the back of your neck really works wonders. You'll have to get new cold water often though!

4) Cooling Vests
I do not own one of these, but I've heard they are absolutely amazing. There are several websites that sell vests which are meant to hold ice packs. The ice packs last a few hours and can be refrozen over and over again. Some people on dinet.org say they make the summer much more enjoyable for them as they can do things they wouldn't normally be able to do.

5) Invest in a fan/air conditioner
We do not have whole house air conditioning, which is probably a little unbelievable for some of you. Our house is old and does not have the duct work available, so we are forced to use the window units. It's nice to keep at least 1 room in the house as the "sanctuary room" that I can run to when I am getting really overheated. If humidity isn't a problem where you live, then a fan or swampcooler may work really well for you too.

6) Dip in a pool or lake
If you own a pool or have a neighbor with a pool, this is always a really good option. Getting into a cool, swimming pool can feel absolutely amazing when it's hot outside. If you aren't lucky enough to have a pool nearby, then the local lake will work too! I'm not much of a "beach" person, but this year I think I might try out the swimming area at a lake near my house. It's better than suffering in the heat.

Always Gather Your Medical Records As You Go

I've been on the phone with various doctor's offices in the past few days and this entire experience has made me realize how important it is to gather your medical records AS YOU GO. My pediatrician said that '84 birthdays have been destroyed and that my next best bet was to call the doctor's office I transferred to after them. Well that office has NO idea whether those records are there or not unless they pull them from storage. Pulling them from storage involves a fee, about 2 weeks of time and who knows what other hassles.

If I ever have children, I'll be sure to keep all of their medical records on file for them. That way when they get older, I'll be able to hand them over to them after high school for future reference and they won't have to go through all of this.

You never know when you'll need to look through you or your child's records. As a parent you'll be more aware of any trends that are occurring with blood work too. We tend to listen to our doctors when they say things are normal without ever seeing labs. If we gather our labs, then we can become our own advocates and avoid suffering with conditions for many many years.

NutrEval Finally DONE!

I've had this kit for so many months, but finally got around to getting the NutrEval test done. The test is soo convoluted and it requires a lab or hospital to take 4 vials of blood, spin them down and then transfer cells and plasma into separate tubes. No one wanted to do it for me. Labcorp and Quest diagnostics were worthless. There was 1 lady who said she'd do it for me at Quest, but she couldn't guarantee if she wasn't working that the lady who was would. Well that does me NO good because I have to take urine the morning of too.

I found a local hospital (about 45 minutes away) would do it for me for a mere $7 charge. So we traveled up north and got it done. It was still a disaster...The lady seemed confused and I just told her to follow the directions and I'll take the blood and vials with me. We got everything and I called Fed-Ex to come pick it up. I'm just waiting for them now.

This test is very comprehensive. So much so that I will have to do a lot of research in order to interpret the results! Here's a sample report in PDF I'll expect to get from them. I am mostly interested in the nutrient, element and catecholamine information.

Tomorrow I may call Cleveland Clinic to see if they have the results of the catecholamines yet.

Edit: FedEx just came and it's gone!

Update:
Here are my results to the NutrEval test.
If you would like more in-depth information on what my results showed, then read this post.

Cooking With POTS

This isn't about cooking with cooking pots, but with POTS (Postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome). I thought this would be a fun considering the lovely pun! (hehe I rhymed)

Cooking with POTS is about as difficult for me as what a healthy person would equate to running 5 miles. Getting the pots out of the cabinets takes so much effort. GOD forbid something is still dirty from the last meal and I have to rewash it. I slowly stand up from the squatting position and walk over to the sink to fill it with water. Once that pot gets heavy, my arms just want to stop holding it because my heart doesn't appreciate this extra effort, so I rest it on the metal lip of the sink. Phew. That makes it a little easier.

I walk over to the refrigerator and grab some frozen vegetables and/or rice. These are 2 easy side dishes for me. The amount of required standing is minimal, so it's not soo bad. Still during this entire time my heart rates are 135+. I dump the rice or veggies into the pot and set it down on the stove. Almost there...phew!

Now I got to get the main dish ready! Oh no. This is normally when I really start to feel the "burn"....Grabbing another heavy dish out of the lower cabinet is tough. Going from that squatting position to standing again is terrifying. Now I got to walk over the refrigerator, get the chicken out of the refrigerator and prep it. I'm not that creative when it comes to food dishes, but I always make sure I put a lot of salt on my foods!

By the time I wrap aluminum foil over the dish, I need to get out of the kitchen and sit down.

On really bad days I just can't even do it. I have to ask my husband to cook because I'm soo tachycardic.

This might sound weird, but if I were a fainter, then people could SEE I'm suffering. "oh wow this girl isn't feeling so well, she fainted". But nope, I don't faint so as long as I look okay people think I must feel okay. I can certainly tell you that is not the case. I'm a stubborn person, so I just keep going until it gets soo difficult.

Since we are gluten free, egg free and we watch the ingredients in our foods very carefully, we cannot order out EVER. We cannot eat out EVER. I have to make every single meal in this house and it's tough some days. I'm not complaining about making the food, I just know that even normal mom's and housewives depend on McDonalds, Pizza Hut or their local Chinese restaurant at least a few times a week and I don't have that option! I really wish I could order a Made to Order sub at the gas station down the road...Nope can't do that. No matter how bad I feel someone in this house has to cook and it's my responsibility!

On Tuesday or Wednesday, we are getting the blood drawn for the NutrEval test, which will test A TON of different nutrients. I am hoping it finds something really wrong so I can start supplementing with it. Maybe this is just a rare nutrient deficiency and I'll get better!